gross cw – nothing

holy shit you guys pmdd is the worst fucking thing ever i swear to god. the pain is so intense i might pass out. feels like my asshole is being knifed and twisted inside, feels like a hole is being burned into my intestines, and i’m struggling to not vomit. i hate this!!! aspirin does nothing!! i threw up all over the bed so that’s in the wash and i can’t go lay down, and i can’t even like draw or hold a pen because i’m shaking. oh but you know!!! the docs!!! they can’t let me have any pain meds because i could become addicted lol! you fuckers. no it’s totally normal that i’m trying not to scream from this shitty ass pain. you assholes! i’m definitely calling in sick tomorrow there is no fucking way i can work like this i can barely type this shit.

and worse still is I had an IUD but had to have it removed due to complications, but i swear to christ since i had it removed it’s like the pmdd symptoms have also worsened??? and my insurance is such shit that i’ll get charged out the nose for going to go get seen. every 2 weeks i get some new random ass bill from the doc office that i swear i fuckin paid already??? what the hell? what the hell! and i wasn’t doing that bad today but it just suddenly 20 minutes ago i feel like i’m dying and that’s just how today is going to play out. awesome.

anyways i just wanted to rant about this. this isn’t like, some vague* at anybody i’m just in so much fucking pain and typing it out is distracting me from it i guess. i wish there was a miracle pill that could make this debilitating pain go away. why does my period always make my asshole hurt??? like wtf???? it’s like a goddamn serrated knife up there!!!

*fyi i don’t vague about ppl bcus i don’t feel good doing those. jsyk.